...forever chasing something that doesn't exist.....& in time he would destroy himself. What does he hoped to aim for? Redemption?
The awesome peeps in Phillipines!
Back from my awesome trip in the PH and these are one of the amazing locations over there. I swear PH has tons of beautiful locations that you'll be amazed.
Dug out one of my old cosplays because I wouldn't wanna miss out on such a beautiful location! Was looking for a Sebastian at PH but not much luck since BB wasn't exactly in trend. Hurhur I shall have another shoot with my Sebastian soon!
About this photo : I know the quote isn't exactly fully related to Ciel but it's related to me. I'm having a lot of insecurities and doubts about myself a lot lately. My confidence in myself has been dropping more and more. And I can't help but to wonder what was I chasing? Why do I care so much? I can't help but to notice that a few people don't exactly talk/connect to me anymore.
And then I wonder?
After they know the true me, they found out that I am actually a distasteful person?
I am not what they have hoped for? I have turned out to be someone really bothersome?
Should I hide myself again once more?
Whats worst is that... these are people that I admire. They don't need to be famous/known/great for me to be attracted to them. They have a quality inside of them that is deemed beautiful and amazing.
Or it could all just a paranoia in my head. I've becoming more and more conscious of my persona that I've been very disgusted at myself lately.
Just what exactly am I chasing for?